THIS IS A STORY OF GOD’S LOVE CHASE AFTER THE BROKEN, REJECTED, CAST OFF AND FORLORN.
This story is of the true meaning of love "to whosoever will come", and my testimony of restoration. I know that Jesus came to heal the broken hearted because He healed mine.
Healing love always thinks the best, loves the best and rejoices when truth wins out. 1 Corinthians 13th chapter.
God taught me about the true meaning of unconditional love in 25 years of God's love chase after the alcoholic, my School of the Spirit. I was Born Again, in the marriage of my youth that was fraught with heartache and abuse. God equipped and empowered me with compassion and authority against evil for the rejected, the cast-off, and the abused.
I was raised in a Catholic home that believed marriage is until death do us part, my parents were married 72 years. I had a loving, childhood full of adventure fostered by my dad, Troy Madden, who was a popular Seattle Fire Chief, 2nd in line to the Chief of Seattle. Dad brought Medic One to Seattle. He ran into burning buildings. Mom was a stay-at-home mom from a Belgium immigrant family who homesteaded in Ketchikan, Alaska. We spent summers and weekends at a primitive cabin on one of 172 islands in the San Juan Islands in NW Washington State, with no electricity, or indoor plumbing. We heated with wood, had an outhouse and a hand pumped 20 ft. well I galloped big race horses on the beaches, boated and clammed and fished and played Hide and Seek in the woods after dark.
Yet, as I grew into my teen years, God put it into me, there was something more about love than what I had experienced. There was a deeper call within me that YEARNED for the intense MEANING OF LOVE and the expression of that love. I didn't know I was walking in my destiny.
I thought I wanted to be a nurse to express that, so I took all the college prep courses with a 3.8 grade average, but in 1955, at the age of 16 I'd met a handsome 18 year old sailor on a blind date and fell head over heels in love with him. 2 years later, I graduated, the ship was leaving, and he wouldn't wait for me, so we married September 14, 1957, right out of high school in a large beautiful formal Catholic wedding with friends and relatives.
Jack (name changed) resembled Elvis Presley with his tall dark good looks ,deep blue eyes and heavy eyebrows. He was a highly intelligent, moral and principled man, who loved dogs and kids, and reminded me of my dad. With a promise for the future, destined to be a naval officer, I wanted him to be the father of my children.
He had closet anger, Rum and coke was his drink. God was about to show me HIS love-chase after the alcoholic, my husband, a man obsessed with generational rejection and abandonment, since childhood, back several generations.
Jack, with all his intelligence had "aced" Officer Candidate School for the U.S. Navy, but got cold feet and thought he couldn't do it. He then rejected that opportunity to become an officer, that would have given good pay and a higher standard of living in nice Officer homes. He abandoned our dream, stayed in Enlisted man corps, saying, "I'd rather be a big
fish in a little pond, than a little fish in a big pond". I felt that he had sold himself short to what he was capable of doing, but needed to choose his own career.
Disappointed, but I didn't want to be responsible for a choice he'd resent and blame me. Jack did advance to the top of his career in 30 years as a Radar Chief with an arm full of 7 gold hash marks, one for every 4 years of unblemished service and a good Retirement.
However, along the way, he manic/depressive with a large loud violent and maniacal temper that erupted into frightening episodes from slight offenses taken over innocuous remarks. He escalated into character assassination, and false accusations. His Controlling, jealous, and accusing nature became more of a problem, in outbursts of sudden violence interspersed with more drinking. By the time I was 23 I was jerked out of bed by the hair torn out and my jaw dislocated my mother's milk soaked my gown. Just 2 weeks after childbirth, because I didn't respond to him. We had 4 sick babies under 5 1000,s of miles from home.
He was not the man I thought I'd married. He told me it was my fault and I if I ever left him or reported him he would hunt me down and kill me. He said he'd have me barefoot walking the streets looking for a place to live. I believed him and I lived in terror. There was no help. The family down the street were happy, but had no answers, even with a big bible on the table. I sought a psychologist who asked me, "What did you do to cause it?". I didn't cause it! I had to scrounge money for bus fare and risk my life to get help. Now he said it was my fault, but I was the victim!
I was 24, and didn't know what to do. I remembered him as the man he could be.I cried and hung out baby clothes in the winter snow. I heard a great sound of singing in the heavens that hovered over my head. The Spirit of the Lord spoke to me in a solid resonance to my bones, the message to "Pray that he be converted", and swept away into the distance.
By the time I was 26 we'd been married 8 years and had 6 children, 4 sons and identical twin daughters born in 5 duty ports all over the United States and Hawaii.
God gave me a miracle!! In 1965 I asked God for twins, and they were born that year! on Christmas Day! I was either pregnant and moving, or I'd just had a baby and moving, but...I was moving!
Our many military separations
up to 6 months at a time provided a buffer between us to recover from the abuse. Military ship movements actually enabled and prolonged our struggles . Although he'd hurt my heart many times, I was a Catholic with hope for his change, kept me from leaving.
Half way through our marriage of 25
years,1971 war in Vietnam loomed dark on our horizon. We were stationed in Long Beach,Ca. which was 1,000 miles from home in Seattle.
He prepared to go to war off the coast of Vietnam for 6 months. The ship, U.S.S. Henderson DER
(Destroyer Escort Radar), went to sea on training exercises. As a Radar Chief, he was responsible to lob heavy artillery into enemy strongholds.
However, an incident happened prior to the ship being deployed for Viet Nam that hurt us. Jack got drunk on rum and coke with pre-deployment jitters for what he was facing and concerns about leaving family alone.
A discipline problem came up with our youngest son, 8 years old was seen playing with matches by stomping them out in a dry field that could have set the field on fire.
Jack asked him if he was playing with matches, he admitted it, then blamed
his 10 year old brother!
I was in the kitchen, totally unaware. Jack grabbed the little boy's hand to burn his fingers with fire! He held his finger to the match until the flame went out against his finger tips. Screaming "No dad! No dad !" Three times, the fire and pain from fire was forced on him escalated, no stopping him, and looked like no end.. His innocent 10
yr. old brother was next. I jumped in to stop him. Joey hollered, but grasped in his father's grip, couldn't break free. I grabbed his arm and screamed for him to stop it! Don's face
contorted with hatred, as he threw out his arm, pointed a finger in my face and shouted, "and YOU STAY OUT OF IT OR I'LL MAKE IT WORSE!". Ohmygod, he'll make it worse, I reeled back, and they both broke free and ran screaming past me out the door holding their burned fingertips up in terror down the street through our Navy housing in anguished trauma driven by pain and betrayal of their father; the father is the man who is supposed to protect them. My 8 year old was last seen still running and screaming 3 blocks away.They were both lost and stayed out all night. The Shore Patrol wouldn't help with "Spoiled kids who need to be spanked"
Jack stormed into the kitchen, smashed his drink into the sink, glass
flew everywhere as he spat at me, "You take care of these kids!", threw his bags together and left for the ship, ordering me "and don't be on the dock when the ship comes back!". He meant it. I usually took him to the ship in our only car, but he took the car and left me stranded.
He wanted a divorce! He'd had a meltdown and had left. I was alone with the family. He was done and abandoned us, forever.. But God had another idea, and would not leave us fatherless.
Standing there helpless in the hallway; my husband had left me, my boys were
gone, and I didn't know where they were, and I had no car. Our 5 year old twin girls and sons 9 and 12 were home. I bedded the children down, but my 2 youngest sons didn't come home for dinner, or even for all night. I stayed
up worried, scared, brokenhearted, pacing all night. One little 8 year old boy slept in a dumpster that night, 12 miles from home in Lakewood, California. They ran different directions; the 10 year old found a bush to sleep under.
I stayed in my grief, fighting for my husband, for my man I married, in a forever marriage that I could not let go of. Divorce and going home to Seattle a welfare mother with 6 kids was not an option for a Catholic woman with six children who needed a father.
I had anger I dealt with, but loved him with loyalty because I
saw the good in him, the childhood issues that triggered him, and I thought he
could change.Sunday Mass had no answers.
The only other option I had was to fight to keep the
family's father and get him restored "for the sake of the
family", rather than divorce "for the sake of the family". Now, in those days, we didn't have support for abused women or even shelters, and there I was with no understanding, about to pioneer.
My mother in Seattle, told me about a 6-week course of study for the Christian wife that taught how to love and understand her husband. She had told me, "You made your bed, you lie
in it", but thought this might help me, "lie in my bed" so I found a class in a Nazarene Church. I bravely went outside my protective the Catholic
Church, guarded as I dared to enter the Protestant Nazarene doors. I was so desperate for answers I'd do anything to save my marriage.
Thankfully, the course emphasis was on understanding and appreciating your husband, not on salvation. The Bible was "dumbed down" or I probably wouldn't have accepted the teachings. I learned that my mother hadn't taught me much. I had used my dad as a good example of someone I wanted to marry, and thought that I had found him in my husband. I learned to see my husband as a man with a man's feelings in ways I'd never thought about before, to understand his emotional need to feel appreciated and admired, and to see I had misunderstood his masculine reactions. I learned how to support him in ways that didn't hurt his masculine pride, that would soften him and arouse his desire to protect and love me.
As my eyes were opened, I
realized I had a part in our troubles, and owned my sins of omission rather than commission. I never swore at him, called him names, or was mean, I didn't have a mean bone in my body, but I had not shown him appreciation for
his role as our protector and provider, or in his fiscal leadership, nor had I expressed
encouragement for him to be the man he could be, and praise for the man I loved. Is that all there is to it? learned he may have lived
a life of quiet desperation as he sought to gain recognition and respect from me. Starved for my love expressed by appreciation because there wasn't much to appreciate him for, turned into resentment and exaggerated his suppressed anger, making it impossible to talk with him. A cycle I could break.
SOMETHING I COULD DO.
I wasn't responsible for his rage or decision to turn to alcohol, but I was grieved over what I could have changed, and could have mitigated.
I began a letter
writing campaign to him on the ship off Viet Nam. I asked him to forgive me and give me another
chance. However, there was no forgiveness; everyday I received nothing but dead silence. The mailman passed my door his rejection was driven home to me. After two months, and 60 rejections, I got a letter. I excitedly ripped it open, only to read: "If you write one
more letter I will throw it in the ocean!". I reeled back like I'd been shot, for he was bitter with no reconciliation in mind. I went to my room and cried.
I was devastated, and felt slapped down. Give me a week I'd rallied back, determined not to take "No" for an answer. By God, the stakes were high, but I was determined to count the higher cost to myself for the sake of the family, and so like "water on a rock" I came back stronger writing about his family to a man who didn't want us. He had turned his back and lost himself in his work, isolated on a ship lobbing shells into Vietnam with enough guilt and anger from the war to last a lifetime.
Finally, after five months I was losing hope. Every day I'd look down the street of Navy Housing duplexes for the mailman, coming down the row as he delivered mail from door to door, and then crushed as he passed our door. Every day another rejection stabbed my heart and I turned and wept.The other wives received mail from their husbands which they joyfully shared together under the clotheslines. Their friendly inquiries to me only drove home the point that I didn't have a husband. Rejected and left out, I realized Jack would be home soon. I watched time slip away as I was forced to face reality and give
up. I didn't think I would have to try this long or this hard..Hope has taken down the biggest.
My dad had taught me, "never give
up hope" that was deeply ingrained in me, I was a "daddy's girl". He was my role model, but I found was impossible to do. Jack's directive, "Don't be on the dock when the ship comes in" rang in my ears, in conflict against my dad's admonition, "Never
give up hope. If you give up hope you might as well be dead". He was right; I might as well be dead. He never gave up hope to rescue lives. His heroism was documented in the newspaper many times, and I was his daughter.
BORN AGAIN SAVED BY GRACE! I SWUNG MY HOPE ONTO JESUS CHRIST.
The date was April 17, 1971, 2 days before my 32nd birthday, crushed
and isolated, a thousand miles from family, I felt a devaluation of the devastation sitting in the stink of my total failure, isolation and loss. Nothing was left. I had given my life for my husband and could do no
more. I felt God had failed me, that He didn't care. Heaven was a stone wall, silent . Why? I was faithful. My rosary to
Mary had not worked, I went to Mass, I went to Confession, my Catholic religion had failed me. Isolated, no friends, washed-up, a failure as a wife
and mother, my six small children had no father and it was my fault, I had no future, and no
job and no job skills. Just go home as a welfare mother of six all in gradeschool, I felt overwhelmed, and shamed before my family as Catholic, rejected as the wife of his youth in a reproach that was not acceptable.
At the total end of myself, totally broken I crumbled onto my face on my
bedroom floor sobbing into the carpet, in broken puddle of grief and brokenness before God I've never experienced before or since. I was so undone, I felt empty as a
black hole with nothing left and no hope a Humpty-Dumpty, the broken egg broken in so many pieces nobody could put me back together again.
The total isolation in loneliness I experienced was overwhelming I wanted
to die. I wanted to stop the world and get off. I didn't want my life any more, but my children needed a mother and I was the only parent they had.
In all those years nobody had "come to get me" with the saving knowledge and power of Jesus Christ. I didn't even know HOW or know the term, "Born Again" from John 3:3. Jesus said, "Unless one is born again, he cannot see the Kingdom of God".
Face on the floor with arms spread out I cried out to God, if He didn't hear me, to the four walls, "Take my life
and do with it what you want, because I don't want it any more!" and surrendered my life to Him in Jesus.
Suddenly, a strange light filled the room. As I looked up I felt the Spirit of the Lord God instantly came into me! I sucked up my breath. I was instantly filled with joy! My mind, my whole countenance changed! I slowly picked myself up off that floor a different person! Crying, tears like a faucet, and laughing at the same time.
In wonder, a great love I'd never felt before in all my life had filled me up
and overwhelmed me with a joy that flooded my soul. Peace infused into me with such a fullness to the marrow of my bones. Darkness was gone! The God
of love had come into me!
I was "Born Again" and didn't even know it! I didn't know there was a word for it!
Nobody had told me. I had gone from death to new life and didn't even know what had happened to me!
I felt newborn, clean and shiney inside with a new start. I stood there in
amazement and looked down at myself. I looked the same on the outside, but on the inside was a different story.
GREAT peace deep in my bones had come upon me, all turmoil was gone.
The contrast from being an absolute
distraught and broken person, to love joy and peace was so sudden, so great and
wonderful, I didn't think it was possible. Nobody would believe me.
I had a new life, and even though I
didn't even know the words "born again", by the sovereign hand of God by the power of the Savior Jesus, that is exactly what had happened! I was truly "born anew"!
I felt like I had the answer
for all the world's problems! ...and, I had a new beginning.
The Word says, "His arm
is not short that He cannot save". "Unless a man be born again he cannot see the kingdom of God" John 3:3
He had opened my eyes, and demonstrated to me "For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish, but have everlasting life. 17 for God did not send His son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved" John 3:16-17.
I felt I had an answer for the whole world couldn't wait to share with my dad! However, my hero didn't understand my experience and thought I should see a counselor.
I'd actually, just met "The Greatest Counselor" and "Prince of Peace" the world has ever known, the One whose love supersedes all, for Jesus had found me at my
lowest moment with His love and compassion, He came into me with forgiveness and wiped my slate clean!
been knocking on the door of my heart all the time, and I didn't understand that's what it was, or know how to let Him in.
In the very midst of
turmoil of death and hell itself, in its utter darkness, loneliness and despair, He brought life, and eternal life! Amazing! Something only God could do! Impossible, but true!
I was now what the Bible called, "a new creation, for the old had passed away,the new had come". I
certainly didn't earn it by doing good things for God, for whatever I had done to fix
us, was not working. All I had was dung
by comparison .
When I gave up everything, I gained everything, I exchanged my
weakness for His strength; I had a new lease on life and I knew now, that
everything would be OK, for my life belonged to Jesus Christ, and somehow, I felt a
security in that and hung onto it. I don't know how I knew it, but I just did.
Just one of those things that can't be understood naturally.
I immediately had
spiritual ears to hear, and I heard a cruel mockery with a sneer, "What did you
do THAT for? Why did you give your life to HIM!? Your life
is still the same, nothing has changed." Hiss-s, like a snake.
"It doesn't matter; my life belongs to Jesus now. He can do with it what
He wants," I meant it, for I had given up.
Immediately, I heard Jesus
thunder in my spirit like a strong masculine voice, "It is
done! It is finished!" and pushed that entity back with a voice of authority. Later I learned from the Bible that those were His
last words on the cross as He proclaimed victory over death, for He had overcome death with life and that work had obtained salvation and life and
healing for us, and the devil was now trying to steal it from me. I was in the ever present NOW of God.
With the blood bought word-spoken power of God, He sent that evil entity flying on the heels of
its own mockery, and protected His new baby as He "went to bat"
I heard this battle in my spirit for 3 days. I hoped it would last. With a solid peace, I knew I was going to be
OK. Within a few days it dawned on me that
I had a new beginning that would
actually last the rest of my life, and came with an eternal security that would last forever.
I was not my own now, but bought with a price He had paid, for the free gift of salvation. Now I belonged to Jesus, and he "came that I might have life, and that life in abundance!" This day God became real to me, and these words were fulfilled.
Only God could break the chains that bound me and let this
oppressed one go free! He came to heal the broken hearted, and to proclaim liberty to the captives! You can look it up in the Holy Bible, for the LIVING Word of God was demonstrated to me in: (Isaiah 58:6 Isaiah 61:1, same Luke 4:18)
We are bought with a price, not of our own works, lest any man should boast. It is only because of God’s undeserved kindness that you have been saved by your faith in Christ. And that salvation is not something you can work out for yourself. It is a gift from God! You can’t work for it, so no one can brag about what he did to save himself! For God is the one who worked for us, and now continues to work in us. Ephesians 2:8-10 Life Messenger Bible
A few days later, God
sent two Baptist women to lead me to the
Lord using a tract of 4 spiritual laws of Biblical principles used to show unbelievers the way. They taught me a new word, “repent” and the
phrase, ”born again”. When I heard that
Word, my spirit leaped for joy inside me, I saw a little man doing
cartwheels…and I knew something special was going on; I was saved! the Greek word sozo for "saved"
and Jesus' name means "Savior" or, rescued, healed, (past tense) and being made
whole (present tense). I learned that Jesus had obtained
a free salvation for me, and I had accepted it when I let Him into my life and
surrendered my life to Him with all my heart. I wouldn't receive the power anointing of Baptism in the Spirit for nearly another year. God used Jewish Michael and Martha Landsman from Harbor Christian Center, who is now a professor.
That whole week was very traumatic. I thought my dad would be glad for me, but I was hurt when my dad
thought I was crazy, then three days later, my
husband’s 32 year old sister in Illinois, died tragically from a sudden brain
aneurysm and passed away leaving 4 children, including her twin boy and girl. Even though I'd
accepted the thought of a divorce, I now felt a renewed sense of loyalty for him, that my last act of
love would be to travel from Long Beach, Ca. to Peoria, Illinois to represent him before
heading home to my family in Seattle, Washington. You see, I was filled with unconditional love for him that I hadn't had before.God came into me.
"farmed-out" 6 children to 3 different families with 2 each. As I
got into the taxi to the airport the mailman was working down the row of our
Navy Housing. I asked the cab
driver one last time, "Please wait a moment, I want to see if I got a letter". I GOT A LETTER FROM JACK! There was THE letter I'd waited 5 months for!! He had sent it 2 weeks previous, and the timing for me was NOW after surrendering to God, sitting in a cab to leave. The Lord had orchestrated
the timing! I laughed and cried, as I ripped it open to find a birthday card, "Okay, you win. I'm
coming home.P.S. Here's $20.for a new dress". That was all he said, but that was the only love letter I needed. I left in peace for Illinois with a smile. I knew the Navy would send him to Illinois in bereavement leave, this would be our reunion, and I would be there to comfort him. His sister had Passed away 2 weeks after he wrote the letter. Today there's no lag in emails.
They had to airlift him off the ship with a helicopter off the coast of Vietnam, then a five day
flight from 1/2 way around the world that still made him late for the funeral. He finally arrived, travel
weary and grief-stricken, but very surprised to see me! We fell into each others arms, cried, comforted and loved one another with mixed
emotions in a joyful reunion mixed with grief I kissed him all over his whole face. I was in love again, for God had given me more love for him and both of us a new start, than I ever had
before, and the joy of victory.
Well, a year later, I left Catholicism because the Lord encouraged me. I needed to find out about what I had experienced.
I joined Harbor Christian Center Assembly of God in
San Pedro, with Pastor Herb Ezell. His father had been at Azusa Street. This powerful church was filled with people whose lives were changed by the love and power of God, and knew that Born Again was true!
I felt at home with other like-minded folks, and in that, I also joined the millions of others around the world in my new family of God. I had found those who also knew the truth in the love and power of God, with miracles, signs and wonders.
With God-given love and compassion working through me for my war hero, this wounded one my childhood sweetheart, the father of my children, God began a work of love like a healing balm over me.
Yet, in the struggle for his soul, still bound with
lies of rejection guilt and distrust, he cried out, “God couldn’t love me
because I’ve killed!” He suffered Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome from
the Vietnam War, guilt and anger kept him depressed in the lie from the pit; His demons stayed, and he kept drinking.
that day when I was Born Again, we were married twelve more years for a total of 25 years. Twelve, in God's economy is the number of
completion. I don't think a wife's or a mother's heart has been more
tested. After we retired from the Navy
in Seattle, came more incidents of abuse, then I heard in my spirit, "Enough is
enough", for "God is not obligated to strive with man forever". I wanted counseling. He never told me to divorce him. I separated for 2 years, as I sought for reconciliation, but he found someone else. I don't know if he ever accepted that knock on the door of his heart by the Lord God who loves him, for he was a troubled soul.
Six lives were at stake, but I trusted in God's salvation I knew He would save them no matter what their age, that He would take care of all of us in His time and restore us, for I knew that God had the power to save my children too. Abraham sacrificed his son because he believed God would save him and keep His promise as a father to many nations.
And so, I closed a
chapter in our lives I divorced with a broken heart, for I didn't even have my anger to sustain me. Compassion had given way to forgiveness, and I let it go.
By now, the children were 15 to 24, and so, after 25 years of marriage we
divorced. His choice was to never see his family again, and he meant it, with "I'm not going to be a part-time father" in fact, not a father at all. The father wounds are on the sons. The word "anger" used the 1st time in the Bible is "Where is my father?!!"
HOW he could throw away such a beautiful family is beyond me. I never spoke against him to the children, for he is their father. 1/2 of who they are is of him. He would do a good enough job of that for himself. He continued to reject and refused to see them or his grandchildren.
had given him my best, and had never been manipulative, but every time I gave or said something nice he always trampled on my heart in contempt and threw it back in my face with, "What do you want, now?" He constantly rejected me and the Lord's heart for him with his paranoid suspicion of an ulterior motive, and I could never prove my love had no strings attached. I only wanted HIM, and earn his trust in a marriage filled with love and intimacy of being there for each other. He didn't have the love of God for himself or for me, to sustain him, as I did for him, and I wanted that for him.
His biggest mistake was in rejecting God who loved him. I pray my sons and daughters don't make that same mistake, and be "like father, like son"! We need to break this generational curse! What the world doesn't need is another bitter man or woman. We need love of God for a changed life.
I think that we do the same thing to Father God. All He wants is US, he wants our heart. He just wants to be there for us; He just wants to be believed! in a trust is given by choice!
With forgiveness on only my side, I couldn't win and a new start with him was impossible. That love and trust, as with God, must be freely given..
issues stemmed from childhood, and could only be healed by Jesus the Christ, the one who came to heal the brokenhearted. When one says "no" to God he says"no" to love, over and over again and hardens their own heart, for God IS love.
That time is now, 48 years later. We pray and fast for him and his children according to Malachai to turn the heart of the father to the children, and the children t the father. I pray for reconciliation between
him and his kids now in their 50's.
The parallel is that trust is freely given and crucial to seeing God as a good Father with open arms to welcome us "come on home"..like the Prodigal son.
Leaving the past behind, within 2 years I was married to a Christian man for 27 years until he passed away from diabetes in 2009. We built a farm and ministry out of an old homestead God told us to buy, and opened our doors to the broken, the rejected, and homeless for SHILOH PRAYER & FASTING RANCH.
I continue this ministry born out of the catalyst of my own pain, that nobody had come to "get me" when I was desperate. Somebody has to "go and get them out!" This has been my life's work, as a result, this has become the house that love has built as people we have helped us and said, "thank you" a ministry from an old 96 year old knotty pine homestead
Ten years later, I never saw a marriage in my future, to Bill Combs, neither one of us was looking for a partner. God's love brought about the biggest restoration of my life! Family was brought together from afar as we've ever had! Hearts were restored, with bonds of love.
Shiloh Prayer & Fasting Ranch is based on the belief that our God desires to raise up an army on fire for Jesus Christ to take back from the enemy what he has stolen, and send them out into the highways and byways to pull out those who sit in darkness and bring the power of God through Jesus Christ in peace, love and joy in the Holy Spirit. Jesus wants to restore and raise up "treasures hidden in darkness". I'm on a search for those treasures.
We are a healing place, and refuge, building a support of intercessors for those who are anointed by God, sent to pierce that darkness, and bring out the rejected, the cast off, the wounded, and the forlorn, the "whosoever will".
The cry in my heart is to the prodigal, like the Good Samaritan, someone has to go get them out, and bring them out of darkness!! Through the tragedy of brokenness, I've become an overcomer who has become a warrior against fear by faith! I feel the reason I was born is to war against fear! Faith or fear, take your pick, because if you don't have one, you WILL have the other!
IS LOVE. THAT LOVE CASTS OUT FEAR, RESENTMENT, ANGER AND
BITTERNESS and covers a multitude of sins. Your father the God of love tells the truth.
Otherwise, if you don't believe Him, the devil, the father of lies has become your father.
He makes a bad father who distorts and discredits the truth of God's love, with his lies and threats of punishment. Which would you rather have?
Thank you Lord from the bottom of my heart, my true Father of love and truth. Increase Your presence with us.
You came when there was no one. You rescued a soul who had never even read the Bible. Jesus, You are a truly amazing Lord.
Your arm is not short that it can not save. And You love us.